In the Season of Figuring It Out
Lately, I’ve been in what I can only describe as a season of figuring it out. Not the “I don’t know what I want to do with my life” kind of figuring it out (though, maybe a little of that too), but more the “I have so many ideas and possible directions that I’m completely paralyzed by them” kind.
Being a creative with ADHD is both a blessing and a curse. On one hand, my brain is a constant brainstorm: sparks of inspiration, new projects, color palettes, business ideas, products I could create, ways to share them, and stories to tell. It’s like a 24/7 creative thunderstorm in there. But on the other hand, that same brain can make it really hard to take action. When there are a dozen paths you could take, choosing just one feels impossible. Every choice seems like it might close off another equally exciting one. And when the pressure builds, when I start feeling overwhelmed by all the options, I freeze.
That’s where the cycle begins again.
When I freeze, I do nothing. When I do nothing, I feel guilty. Then I start convincing myself that the thing I was doing before must not have been the right thing anyway. So I decide maybe it’s time to start fresh. Reinvent. Rebrand. Rebuild from scratch. Because this time, I’ll finally figure it out.
But the truth is, I’ve been “starting over” for years now. And while reinvention can be beautiful, it’s also exhausting when it becomes a constant loop. It can start to feel like I’m never really making progress, just endlessly circling back to the beginning.
So this season, I’m trying to do things differently.
Instead of tearing everything down and starting from zero, I’m learning to pivot gently. To listen more closely to what feels aligned and to let things evolve slowly instead of scrapping them entirely. Because maybe the answer isn’t in a whole new beginning. Maybe it’s in trusting that the version of me who started this path already knew something important.
“Maybe ‘figuring it out’ isn’t a destination but rather a way of being .”
I’m giving myself permission to not have it all figured out right now. To take small, messy steps. To pause without quitting. To let the creative chaos be part of the process… not something to fix, but something to work with.
Because maybe “figuring it out” isn’t a one-time event. Maybe it’s just part of being a creative: a constant unfolding, a lifelong conversation between who I am now and who I’m becoming.
And just to be clear… this isn’t an announcement that I’ve finally figured it out or made a big decision about what’s next. It’s simply me, sharing my thoughts out loud and practicing what I’m trying to learn… that showing up and doing something is better than doing nothing at all.
I actually just listened to Jenna Kutcher’s Goal Digger Podcast, Episode 918, twice in a row. It was that good. It felt like she was speaking straight to my soul. If you’ve ever found yourself in this same space—paralyzed by possibility and needing a gentle kick in the rear to remember that doing something is always better than doing nothing, give it a listen. You won’t be disappointed.